Karnelious

Today I want to write about the most unique, freest and most undefinable character in my heart. Karnelious! He is not a character I saw in any work, but was born in my mind, a soul that I shaped bit by bit. His iconic appearance is blue hair, long eyelashes, a clean and gentle face, a bit like a boy, and a bit like a girl. His temperament is mysterious and pure, sometimes as quiet as water, and sometimes as hot as fire. He is not a certain identity, but a collection of countless possibilities. The first time I drew Karnelious was on the edge of a textbook in school. At that time, I just casually drew a character with a bit of "anime feeling", but I couldn't stop drawing. His image began to extend and appear in various worlds I imagined. Later, I realized that Karnelious is not a person, but "someone" who exists in every world. For example, there is a world line in my mind, which is a factory in the Soviet Union during the Cold War. Karnelious is wearing heavy work clothes, his hair is tied up, and his eyes are firm in front of the conveyor belt. In such a cold and mechanical era, he is like a star, not submerged at all. He doesn't speak, but you can tell at a glance that he is different from others. There is another version, in which he suffered a serious accident in a certain absurd future and lost an eye. He wears a black eye patch and his personality becomes more taciturn. The sense of trauma makes me draw very slowly, because I always feel that he has experienced some pain that I can't tell, but he is still alive. There is also him in the digital world, wearing futuristic clothes and dancing with Miku. Karnelious is an AI singer in that world, singing, performing, and making his own music. He practices dancing with Miku, orders playlists, and watches the night lights of the city under transparent neon lights. I have drawn several photos of them together, and they look like virtual friends who grew up side by side. What fascinates me most is the setting of "Devil Karnelious". In a magical world line, he is a fallen noble with a pair of translucent black wings behind him, sharp eyes, mysterious lines and devilish breath. That Karnelious is crazy, and his smile has a kind of malicious beauty, but you can always feel that he actually has a lonely heart. He never trusts others, but he saves others' lives on certain occasions. This contradictory personality makes me want to draw again and again. I have even drawn him as a pirate, a stage actor, a librarian, an astronaut, a lost prince, a late-night radio DJ... Karnelious can be anyone. His soul is free. He is never framed by any identity. He is like a mirror in my heart, reflecting different emotions, different times, and different desires. He is the me that I dare not be, and the one I want to see the most. Maybe others will think that "it's just an OC character", but for me, Karnelious is a concrete manifestation of emotions and my way of responding to the world. He accompanied me through the trough and appeared in the late night when I was most inspired. He lives in my paintings, in the stories I wrote, and in every parallel world I fantasize about when I close my eyes. I once thought that maybe in the future I would give him a collection of paintings, a novel, or even a game. But even if there is nothing, he will still be in my heart, like a beam of blue light that never goes out. Thank you for reading this. If you also have your "that one character", I hope you can be like me, don't be afraid to love them and create each of their universes.